magic, rain, dark choclolate,...and this here, is me
you sap me of my energy when you burn
but you also give me an adrenaline rush
you make me stop when you stop
but you also give me an unsaid hope
an unsaid desire to be free
to explore myself through you
i cant leave you
people think thats me not accepting change
but thats me wanting to be with you becuase you make me, me
if i do go away, some part of me belongs to you
dont burn, i love you
bring your life back
I Heart K
This is something i came across abhi, hilariously put rendition of Pakistani mindset, although i personally cant stand it when people use the word “burger” to categorize bridge kay us par and is par, but fun read.
i had an episode with this ristha auntie who came from defence with her filmi sa beta and very aptly said..”bhai hum defence main tou rehtay hain magar hum un burger type logon jaisay nahi hain” as she pulled up her short short si capri pants even more
yuck .puke!!!
~by keeping us apart are you preparing me for something big?~
~and thankyou for the car, i cant thank you enough! i may not pray regularly but really thankyou god for the freedom~
10 fab things that changed 2009
hope 2010 is even better:)
Yesterday an over excited ME was present through out the day to celebrate with the batch of 2009 their graduation, the largest batch and the most amazing students…i wanted to be there with them. I taught them 3 years ago, the last IVS batch i taught with M, and we were very proudly MnM by the end of it.
so moving forward, yesterday when an over excited me was going around college hugging kids, congratulating them, doing stuff for the alumni, i was loving every bit of it!! yes it was a saturday and instead of being at home chilling i was spending my entire day being with kids who were graduating…what a loser !!!!:P i obviously dont have a lifa na??!! crazy fools you all who dont have a “real life” themselves and think that if you show joy at people who you love or if you want to be happy with the people who make you proud is craziness. While i was going around trying to get the graduating students to come get their pictures taken at the Alumni booth i heard, “google life!!”, i turned and it was none other than a student who is obviously above and beyond all this, he was embarrassed that i had heard him and said, ” oh not you miss”, i just gave him a grin which was ABOVE AND BEYOND for him and walked away, calling thr kids over..
i was proud yesterday, very proud and remarks like these gave me a twinge for a second and then i thought, why am i concerned?? this is too muc of a moment for me to get washed over by ridiculous comments like these.
o must mention the amazing amazing alumni stall with great stuff…we have been coming a long long way and will do even better. wish,change,communicate,wonder..yayyy
picture credit: MJ and AM
can you see this is LIFE!!!!!;)
All my bags are packed I’m ready to go
I’m standin’ here outside your door
I hate to wake you up to say goodbye
But the dawn is breakin’ it’s early morn
The taxi’s waitin’ he’s blowin’ his horn
Already I’m so lonesome I could die
So kiss me and smile for me
Tell me that you’ll wait for me
Hold me like you’ll never let me go
Cause I’m leavin’ on a jet plane
Don’t know when I’ll be back again
Oh babe, I hate to go
There’s so many times I’ve let you down
So many times I’ve played around
I tell you now, they don’t mean a thing
Every place I go, I’ll think of you
Every song I sing, I’ll sing for you
When I come back, I’ll bring your wedding ring
So kiss me and smile for me
Tell me that you’ll wait for me
Hold me like you’ll never let me go
Cause I’m leavin’ on a jet plane
Don’t know when I’ll be back again
Oh babe, I hate to go
Now the time has come to leave you
One more time let me kiss you
Close your eyes I’ll be on my way
Dream about the days to come
When I won’t have to leave alone
About the times, I won’t have to say
So kiss me and smile for me
Tell me that you’ll wait for me
Hold me like you’ll never let me go
Cause I’m leavin’ on a jet plane
Don’t know when I’ll be back again
Oh babe, I hate to go
Cause I’m leavin’ on a jet plane
Don’t know when I’ll be back again
Oh babe, I hate to go
The second annual Alumni Show, a supercilious, fantastic effort from the people who have been organizing it. I wish i had dont more exciting things for the show, knots could have been funkier, well i have no one to blame but myself. Nonetheless i am a proud show-er at the 16 and glad i stayed committed, even though i had my last-minute jittery back out moments. My only thing for the Alumni Show organizer is that ” maybe there should be a committee who chooses the kind of work that goes up, so only creme a la creme’ of IVS Alumni shines through”.
sometimes i cant imagine it’s actually happening, a few years ago we all used to just talk about it and some people actually made it happen so big kudos to them.
Now as Alumni its our thing to just put the absolute best out there for the rest of the karachities to see and get inspired.
looking forward to 17 with much more vigor and passion.
in frenzy of the past week with back to back shoot happening and work happening on a similar roller coaster pace, i havent had any rest time or just chill time. even with my nieces i havent spend the kind of time i wanted, and then suddenly it was almost eid. I am not particularly fond of this eid, too much ghost stuff happening and no eidi which sucks big time. ["and thats not even fair", this line is my latest anthem i have learned from my niece shanz]
i was looking forward to the bbq at S place the night before eid, although it would have been a difficilut task with everyone over and assi flying in too but i thought i would manage somehow. ummm err no such luck because “my fell ill” [another thing i have learned from my little niece alvi, she does not have "i" in her dictionary]
all through eid i have been coughing and getting hot and cold spasm, and to top that my amma has finally decided she cant handle the gosht business anymore and no more qurbani from next year [ after a meltdown midday] money will be given instead. a decision my bro in law is very happy with becuase he doesnt belive in qurbani and as is other then my abba noone is fond of eating qurbani ka ghost [so all gosht will be given away] trust me the CHICKEN ki biryani last night was a breath of fresh air, even though i couldnt even take a bite thanks to my crazy fever.
ok im losing the track here as usual.
so yeh where was i, the fever!!! the hot and cold spasm, chill in spine, not wearing new clothes because i couldnt shower, being a bhangi on eid. All this pretty much culminates my eid.
movies happened:D thankgod for F who supplied me with enough to last me 10 eids!!
Although im in love with cooking and my dream is to have my cooking show in BBC food, im not doing anything about it..and watchingJULIE AND JULIA
last night got me all geared up. Meryl Streep is awesome in this movie as Julia Child, but i can relate more to Julie who is a present day passionate girl who wants to do something big and see it till the end. I loved her passion, her tantrums and her way of dealing with things. Its a must watch movie.
so yeh eid has been about all this fever ,movies and finally some time spend with the girls…one more day of holiday to go.
i am also very anxious about the alumni show, i tried something new and even though i dont care how everyone will perceive it, im still hoping they like;) i was almost getting myself out of the show but then opted against it. I hope i will remain a part every year and do something new no matter how crazy
last few weeks have been a cross between extreme excitement and extreme frustration. and it is such a close call that nothing has seeped in and settled in my head..everything is happening one on top of the other. I finally got my macbookpro and this is the first time im getting a chance to actually sit with it and blog.
the rush of this buy should have made me go nuts with excitement but parallel to this i have had work happening like crazy. bundled with extreme frustaing and exciting moments life takes a new turn everyday. i loose inspiration and then i regain it, i get excited and then im blahed, its an ongoing battle.
nash and neices are in town living with us and everyday i think today i will go home early, but then something or the other makes it not possible. im craving to spend some quality un interrupted time but nahhhh nothing doing. ALL THIS IS TAKING THE FRUSTRATION LEVEL HIGH
my alumni piece is still in the making, and halfway through i just wanted to let go and not do it. but now its happening [or at least i think it is]
so yeh…i dont know how to react these days, its almost like everything is coming over [the good the bad and the ugly]
i hope i find balance
“sometimes being happy go lucky and friendly is taken in a totally messed up sense..why why why cant one be free and not face weird innuendos”
i will put up a blog everyweek, a project i do, a sketch i like, words…create my own muse.
And right now my muse is my creative investment, coming home soon. The center one is my getting into my family…
i changed my phone almost a year ago when i got it as a birthday on my 30th. more popularly knows as the “calculator phone” by my iphone savy freinds and generally the ladies carrying small phones. well the story is that i usually have numbers on my speed dial and i just noticed today how much life has changed and the top numbers on speed dial…pretty much one is constant and the others have added and one number that used to be on the tip of my tounge and almost on top of my speed dial was my boss/friend UA . he is an ass and i obviously dont have his number on the tip of my tounge or onmy speed dial for that matter…unless i am calling him dailiy to give me my money and its a hassle to go down the list [ umm no i still havent put him on SD even if i have to call him everyday to make him feel guilty]
2 of my oldest friends who i kind of got distant with in the middle are back in my life and with a bang and i cant imagine how i got distant with them in the first place.
so life changes and sometimes the speed dial numbers change, and sometimes since the numbers are in ascending order, someone has to come on number 8 and not becuase they are any less important but its just that there are only 9 numbers and if you are me then numbers and friends are wayyyyyyyyyyy mor then speed dial options.
lots has happened since turning 31 and it looks like 31 just might kick 30’s ass to nirvana.update later
hey you,
i am writing to you because till 3o i got all my fun, tears, laughter and the crazy need to go crazier and ofcourse my nutty car and ohh even my blog restarted on 30. and now that you are approaching with more things [good or bad who knows] i am excited, even when i know that you will be a life changing year, although ive been thinking like that about every year since 25;)
hahah
BUT!!!! dear 31, i feel good and happy and some might say its temporary or just a passing phasing but i almost feel like NOW i have really started living my life …so 31 be prepapred to make all this grow,
i have some expectations from you 31!!!!!!
make me happier
let me be patient
i wouldnt mind more love in me to give
31 you better let me have a year where i dont loose anyone, i want all my friends with me, every single one of them
i want you to make sure i dont let you NUMBER super seed me, i want that ring to my laughter throughout
you make sure i let go smoothly and welcome with love
31 make my creative juices flow more [even if the other ones are drying;):P]
write more 31, blog more
do something GRAND, something that will kick 30’s ass!!! infact kick the ass of every number!!!
and yeh 31 i wouldnt mind a fat pay raise and a new show:D [you know what i mean]
31 i want you traveling, enough bullshit now put things in action [duhh!! how else did you think you were going to kick 30's ass]
love you, i am ready to embrace you so you better come 50% of the way..lets rock it baby!!!. This relationship is valid for a year [dont feel bad] who knows i might remember you forever;)
muaaaach!!!
this is what you are up against
yesss let the nuttiness continue:D
so my shiny new car has issue , i recommend to all out there..DO NOT BUY A TOYOTA lOCALLY ASSEMBLED CAR!!! and NEVER GO TO TOYOTA SOUTHERN MOTORS ON KORANGI FOR IT!!
here is the story in a letter that my abba wrote
“I have purchased a brand new Daihatsu Cuore Ecomatic in November 2008 for my daughter’s use. I preferred a brand new automatic car for her as she should drive a trouble free car due to her odd office timings and generally as well.
With this intimation I purchased Coure Automatic, but it did not workout for her. From before the first service time the car started giving her various problems of gear noise, low pick up etc. Within four months the car stopped on the way in the late evening hours. She had to leave the car at a friend’s home for the night and had to hire Radio cab as she is not allowed to use a taxi at late hours. She took the car to the workshop of Toyota Southern where they simply charged the battery and returned the car the next day. I also did not say anything as it happens sometimes.
During the next 2 months the car again went to the showroom for some an alignment issues which was causing the car to shake and make noise, this was replaced and the other gear noise issues which had resurfaced were fixed too but apparently in vain. The battery issue occurred again last week and the car stopped just like that at late hour while she was returning from a wedding alone. This time at such an odd hour, she had to request to one of her friends to drop her all the way from Defence to North Nazimabad.
Next morning the car was again at the Toyota Southern. They kept it for two days again but initially could not find any fault or reasons for car not being switched on and then after two days realized that some unit had to be replaced which would take another 2 days. Due to her dire need for the car for then, they returned it after simply charging the battery and she was asked to bring it back next week and they will fix it.
Over all the car has gone 6 times to the showroom from the beginning till now every time with an issue, and this time was the limit, for this should not be happening in a brand new car.
If such is the condition of a brand new car from a firm of repute such as yours then how are the parents to relax and trust the vehicle when the young kids are out driving at any given hour. I bought her a new car so she would be trouble free and for my peace of mind, obviously the circumstances are completely opposite.
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It is requested that kindly ask your technical people to see to this repeated occurrence of some issue or another, the car stopping just like that being a major technical problem, and if it is not rectified, then please exchange it with a new car as it is still under warranty.
Look forward to your kind cooperation.”
so the past 3 books that i have read, very coincidently have a lot to say about my life:)
3 weeks ago
SUDDENLY SINGLE
2 weeks ago
HOW TO BE SINGLE
reading now
NOT MARRIED, NOT BOTHERED
hmm says a lot huh..but i tell its been most fun reading them and the amazing part of how i accidently landed upon each one of them..they were almost looking at me from the corner of Mr.Old bookshop..”come read us, you might aswell”
