“sometimes being happy go lucky and friendly is taken in a totally messed up sense..why why why cant one be free and not face weird innuendos”
i will put up a blog everyweek, a project i do, a sketch i like, words…create my own muse.
And right now my muse is my creative investment, coming home soon. The center one is my getting into my family…
i changed my phone almost a year ago when i got it as a birthday on my 30th. more popularly knows as the “calculator phone” by my iphone savy freinds and generally the ladies carrying small phones. well the story is that i usually have numbers on my speed dial and i just noticed today how much life has changed and the top numbers on speed dial…pretty much one is constant and the others have added and one number that used to be on the tip of my tounge and almost on top of my speed dial was my boss/friend UA . he is an ass and i obviously dont have his number on the tip of my tounge or onmy speed dial for that matter…unless i am calling him dailiy to give me my money and its a hassle to go down the list [ umm no i still havent put him on SD even if i have to call him everyday to make him feel guilty]
2 of my oldest friends who i kind of got distant with in the middle are back in my life and with a bang and i cant imagine how i got distant with them in the first place.
so life changes and sometimes the speed dial numbers change, and sometimes since the numbers are in ascending order, someone has to come on number 8 and not becuase they are any less important but its just that there are only 9 numbers and if you are me then numbers and friends are wayyyyyyyyyyy mor then speed dial options.
lots has happened since turning 31 and it looks like 31 just might kick 30’s ass to nirvana.update later
hey you,
i am writing to you because till 3o i got all my fun, tears, laughter and the crazy need to go crazier and ofcourse my nutty car and ohh even my blog restarted on 30. and now that you are approaching with more things [good or bad who knows] i am excited, even when i know that you will be a life changing year, although ive been thinking like that about every year since 25;)
hahah
BUT!!!! dear 31, i feel good and happy and some might say its temporary or just a passing phasing but i almost feel like NOW i have really started living my life …so 31 be prepapred to make all this grow,
i have some expectations from you 31!!!!!!
make me happier
let me be patient
i wouldnt mind more love in me to give
31 you better let me have a year where i dont loose anyone, i want all my friends with me, every single one of them
i want you to make sure i dont let you NUMBER super seed me, i want that ring to my laughter throughout
you make sure i let go smoothly and welcome with love
31 make my creative juices flow more [even if the other ones are drying;):P]
write more 31, blog more
do something GRAND, something that will kick 30’s ass!!! infact kick the ass of every number!!!
and yeh 31 i wouldnt mind a fat pay raise and a new show:D [you know what i mean]
31 i want you traveling, enough bullshit now put things in action [duhh!! how else did you think you were going to kick 30's ass]
love you, i am ready to embrace you so you better come 50% of the way..lets rock it baby!!!. This relationship is valid for a year [dont feel bad] who knows i might remember you forever;)
muaaaach!!!
this is what you are up against
yesss let the nuttiness continue:D
so my shiny new car has issue , i recommend to all out there..DO NOT BUY A TOYOTA lOCALLY ASSEMBLED CAR!!! and NEVER GO TO TOYOTA SOUTHERN MOTORS ON KORANGI FOR IT!!
here is the story in a letter that my abba wrote
“I have purchased a brand new Daihatsu Cuore Ecomatic in November 2008 for my daughter’s use. I preferred a brand new automatic car for her as she should drive a trouble free car due to her odd office timings and generally as well.
With this intimation I purchased Coure Automatic, but it did not workout for her. From before the first service time the car started giving her various problems of gear noise, low pick up etc. Within four months the car stopped on the way in the late evening hours. She had to leave the car at a friend’s home for the night and had to hire Radio cab as she is not allowed to use a taxi at late hours. She took the car to the workshop of Toyota Southern where they simply charged the battery and returned the car the next day. I also did not say anything as it happens sometimes.
During the next 2 months the car again went to the showroom for some an alignment issues which was causing the car to shake and make noise, this was replaced and the other gear noise issues which had resurfaced were fixed too but apparently in vain. The battery issue occurred again last week and the car stopped just like that at late hour while she was returning from a wedding alone. This time at such an odd hour, she had to request to one of her friends to drop her all the way from Defence to North Nazimabad.
Next morning the car was again at the Toyota Southern. They kept it for two days again but initially could not find any fault or reasons for car not being switched on and then after two days realized that some unit had to be replaced which would take another 2 days. Due to her dire need for the car for then, they returned it after simply charging the battery and she was asked to bring it back next week and they will fix it.
Over all the car has gone 6 times to the showroom from the beginning till now every time with an issue, and this time was the limit, for this should not be happening in a brand new car.
If such is the condition of a brand new car from a firm of repute such as yours then how are the parents to relax and trust the vehicle when the young kids are out driving at any given hour. I bought her a new car so she would be trouble free and for my peace of mind, obviously the circumstances are completely opposite.
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It is requested that kindly ask your technical people to see to this repeated occurrence of some issue or another, the car stopping just like that being a major technical problem, and if it is not rectified, then please exchange it with a new car as it is still under warranty.
Look forward to your kind cooperation.”
so the past 3 books that i have read, very coincidently have a lot to say about my life:)
3 weeks ago
SUDDENLY SINGLE
2 weeks ago
HOW TO BE SINGLE
reading now
NOT MARRIED, NOT BOTHERED
hmm says a lot huh..but i tell its been most fun reading them and the amazing part of how i accidently landed upon each one of them..they were almost looking at me from the corner of Mr.Old bookshop..”come read us, you might aswell”
Pressure of no work and absolute boredom, hating the boss sometimes [ok most of the time these days] and a feeling of uncertainty usually leaves me yearning for some good girlfriend company. Having 2 different sets of most awesome girlfriends, who I have fought with, made peace and argued again endlessly , whined to, listened to, sent a random pointless msg keeping my fingers crossed that this msg will take away the guilt of not calling or chatting recently or atleast lighten the blow, if you know what I mean.
As my best MALE friend F said, “tumhari party full on hai”, when I told him about my Sunday and Monday girlfriend plans. N married to K and now very cutely pregnant is here from Lahore, obsessing about her weight gain, which is almost not there by the way, but considering she was SKINNY otherwise, every bulge is making her panic as she wolfs down yet another food item during the day [she is hungry all the time, OH pardon me, USED TO BE!!! Not anymore…she says this as we order mars cheesecake after lunching and having a bagel]. Ok then there is M, upon her insistence I pick her up first because she wanted to gossip a bit before reaching N [ not about N, no no, just generally, bad for baby hence had to be done earlier]. So we picked up N, and after much this and that, here and there, closed for lunch places, ended up at AYLANTO. Not exactly my choice with there barely there food on the platter when you are extremely hungry but us girls wanted to go somewhere fancy. Awesome food [less though] and a lot of gossip and [they couldn’t help it, and kept looking at me guiltily] baby talk and marriage talk later [I swear I listened in, picking up useful information for future] we left and since ELC was closed, forum was the next destination X. Bathroom trip was the first thanks to N, and lack of hygiene was brooded over.
The day ended after coffee and mars cheesecake at espresso forum and then a rickety ride in my car, when I actually stopped in the middle of SH faisal to make sure the tyres were ok. My worst fear was car toppling over.
Come Monday, and a good lie to boss about dentist trip, I went for early yoga to where Kat goes. Power yoga was good but the later day events made me sure that I was much happier with my regular yoga. After giving SJ a half an hour notice [ so she could make yummy tea and other treats for me and kat] kat me and zoey landed there. Nadi hiding and being all sharmila and general wassap conversation later I realized I was developing a bad headache. Ok now SJ, KAT and I don’t get a lot of time together so this was a precious evening, or so it was supposed to be till my little headache turned into a full blown migraine and the 2 panadols SJ gave me were conveniently vomited out. The funny part was nadi screaming that meyum was in the wrong bathroom, poor thing didn’t realize I couldn’t care while I was retching away and trying to find a cold surface. I could hear SJ and kat talking, gossiping and I could barely listen and do nothing, eventually I went to SJ room and main SHOO GAI “as nadi puts it. I remember waking up after 2 hours, missing all the fun and having SJ and Kat contemplate the strategy if I decided to not wake up!!!
Hahha but it was fun in some twisted way, I managed to drive back to Timbuktu aka HOME, swearing the head lights of other cars and after sending guilty messages to SJ and kat, went to sleep.
What would I do without you girls!!!!much love
hai ho hai ho hai koi hum jaisa
the spirit, inspiration, win we as a nation needed so badly and even as i write this i feel so proud, my heart swells up:D. Someone said it was just 20/20, not the real WORLDCUP, well all i have for whoever you are is screw you. What was out there last night after our win, i cant explain, all i know is that i was happiest and the feel good factor is here to stay inshallah.
I saw the whole thing with my cousins in my room on a tiny TV but the way we screamed, and danced around. Suddenly everyone has a reason to believ that nothing is impossible, as younis khan said, we were underdogs and he lost his hair over it, but they came up as a team and we can come up as a nation…yayyyyyyyyy. God knows we have to stop pointing fingers at people and take a stand, whatever crap people have been saying about afridi blah blah, when i saw his face after that last shot, that pure adrelaine rush look, it was written all over his face that he was there for the team and not for himself.
I hope the entire world saw PAKISTAN as the nation that knows how to love, prosper and WIN, now enough with the terrorist crap . You cant IGNORE us nomore. WE HAVE MADE A MARK.
the only thig that upset me was thr firing going on, i know somepeople got hurt and in anycase why do something like that, fireworks im all for but firing…we can do without for sure.
Inshallah this victory will take PAKISTAN places.
p.s: im wearing green and listening to all awesome old songs..
hai koi hum jaisaaaaaaaaaa
the caps flew in two O one
slogged with AS and IS
down the year, i couldnt bear
left with nothing in hand for future
4years it was indus again
basic, students and NY
awesome time but it ran me down eventually
next stint was camera and action
UA was a bastard, hidden behind facial hair
no dough, but good work
searching for dough
didnt want to do it,
9 to 5 pulled me back
and here i am wanting to switch again
is it good ol 91?
or dresseing up women will be
my style
[ i suck at making a rap song]
post trip has been a lot of sickness and a lot of work, but i have been too disoriented to work, pace as slow as 15 mins worth of work in a whole day
so i the middle of this, i took and day off and today was a holiday [ tribute to the happening of 12 may uhuhh!!]
holiday
its a holiday, i will try to sleep late the night before
its a holiday, a movie is a must even if its 3am
its a holiday,and im not putting an alarm, let alone snoozing
its a holiday, tea shall be in bed with tv on
its a holiday, back to back movie session is a must!!
its a holiday, an aftrenoon/evening nap can leave you feeling groggy and hating the next working day
its a holiday, take a nice long shower and serve tea to amma abba with style
its a holiday, aj tou blog karlo!! [atleast blog todayy]
yeh this might have been a very non serious blog but i had to give some dhaka start to myself
also watching confessions of a shopaholic is making me want to swipe…oh yes there is no money but the itch is soo sweet!!;)
sometimes there is so much happening with you work wise and otheriwse that you stop looking at things around you…good things pass by and you dont even know, your observation power numb.
DAWN newspaper has a fabulous KESC print ad today and i had not seen till K asked me if i had seen it and i was like no…i ran to the reception and flipped thru, a nice big ad of KESC, very angraizish yet Pakistani [you will know what i mean when you see it]
A friend has done the copy for it and i love it…NOW THAT I HAVE SEEN IT!!
i dont want so much work that i stop looking around me:(
I have been going to the gym daily these days… my morning starts at 7 am. Its fun to drive that early. Its awesome at the gym, because there is hardly anyone there and I can do whatever I want…walk, jog tone blah blah…and no one is looking
But there is a man, lets call him Mr.Big [ used for any gorgeous man after seeing S&C]…yes there is a gorgeous guy who is there every morning exercising
And not just good looking, hot hot body!!![Forgive me M;)] so anyway he actually inspires me into not stopping…the only difference is that he uses 75k weights and I use
5: D. Oh well!!
He not muscle-y…he is just very well built, no bicep popping out unnaturally.
But seeing him there just on the go is great inspiration…obviously he doesn’t know of my obsession yet. S asked if I had taken a picture but sadly I haven’t, very few people and enough mirrors to give a 360 view to everyone even if they are blind! Know what I mean.
Here is the catch..he is not 20 or 25 or even 35 for that matter, this guy must be old like 40 atleast [ a few wrinkles gave away] but he can give 25 year olds a run for their money. An almost bald head but straight chin, very very manly, wide broad chest. I can seriously go on and on…
The funniest happened today, when I walked in this morning the song playing was “sher ki larki” remember the Raveena Tondon song, and I thought to myself what the hell!!
But this changed very soon and some good dancy numbers started playing. Initially Mr Big was just bobbing his head to one song and then came Shutup and bounce [ dostana] and he was just bouncing away…yet was so much fun seeing that life on his face and he danced away innocently and since then this song has been the song of the day for me.
Here is to a gorgeous older guy making my sadness go away and making me bounce, and inspiring me to do more and just keep going…
Till tomorrow;)
i caught a kiss of change
teasing hugs of opportunities
caress of new beginnings
magic of pure passion
this is was change can do, while not changing
So i was getting ready in the morning and as usual my tv was switching between 9Xm and random channels between tea sips..and then i got half an hour late eventually…not because of “bakwass bund kar” on 9xm[ which i love by the way] but DEVIL WEARS PRADA, 100th re run on movie channel:D
Thats all i needed..even though i know this movie inside out..from her first time CHANEL BOOTS to the her flinging the phone in a Paris fountain upon seeing Mirandas call, i couldnt help but watch on. The devil inspired me so much, out went my simple shirt with shalwar and on came a cowl neck bottle green shirt and a funky fushia doop, not to mention silver earrings [im uncomfortable with heels to work, so i passed on that] p.s and the bangs are already in place;) and it was too hot to carry a coffe cup
The power of a movie.. feels good all the time
When I was little I always wanted to be the kind of girl who had a lot of drama happeneing all around her, you know where 2 guys love me in school and fight over me, or the teachers think im so smart and the clothes I wear are the best, and people should laugh out loud most at my jokes…I should be funny etc etc…..yeh pretty thick and conceited eh!! I got my share of drama not necessarily in that order or the above mentioned but drama nonetheless. I guess in a way being dramatic has lead me to where I am now…I don’t sit still, there is something bubbling inside of me all the time, but most time, other than my work that drama doesn’t really get out, a few people know me like that because they know me really well.
Sometimes hoping for a lot of drama can lead to a very topsy turvy life, and sometimes you cangt relate those thoughts to everyone and pretty much no one can tell what you are going through or what you want…its not that I am choosing to be a victim here by saying this, it happens and sometimes it cant be helped and sometimes it can be. There are certain aspects of my life that keep happening round the clock and I don’t want to part with them because I don’t see the purpose, these things may later on hurt me but they are also making my present life good and viable. I am tired of living in the anticipation of the future, whatever it is and where it is.
Today I woke up with good energy, wanting to get out and do stuff, become a part of something but halfway down the day I slacked and just bummed, letting the drama go away, well in a way im still being dramatic in this choice..
There also the fear of getting old sometimes, mostly it doesn’t bother me but sometimes..whoaaa it hits like a ton of bricks [although I don’t particularly now how that feels, but im guessing pretty hard] so yehh it hits bad and then all the choices I want to make go a little astray and im left thinking ..hmmm am I at the beginning again…so maybe I haven’t yet come to terms with all that I am and all that I want.
I have noticed, everytime I blog after a very long time, my tone gets very serious and its usually one of my crazy strange “let me be” modes that lead to such strange sounding, abrupt, rambling types blogs…well atleast it gets the spinning started.
A few things that have happened recently
· Kat got zoey into the world and proved that im not full of shit
· I got a bit of a raise, but responsibilities are more
· I got a fantastic big red bag
And there are some other things that I just cant be so open about…ah well…I don’t like that feeling.
p.s: it feels good to write
