where have I been?

I just went through my blog and realised that I haven’t written here for almost over 10 years, yeh that one stupid Nandos post in 2014 doesn’t count. Why did I stop?

the funny thing is that , while rereading my blogs, I thought to myself that who is this funny girl, I actually went and double checked if I was really on my own blog, why did I loose her? is she still there buried in me and I have maybe shut her off or life has shut her off?

I was the one who wants to write a book…so where did I go?

please help me find myself again.


Nando’s Peri Bites

Insanity at its best!

Nando’s has taken grilled chicken to a whole new level and the secret’s in their sauce. But eating at Nando’s can put a nifty dent in your pocket. Thankfully, the sauces are readily available at any good grocery store and/or hyper market.

Like my fellow bird lovers, I go to Nando’s for the best grilled chicken on the planet, but to truly whip up an appetite and to get the taste of what’s to come, you have to order the Peri Bites. These mouth-watering chilies are deep-fried with a crisp coat, and have a cheesy center with a little chunk of their famous peri-basted chicken. For those unlucky few who live in a country where Nando’s doesn’t serve these treats, here’s a pocket-friendly way to try these out within the confines of your own homes.


  • ½ chicken breast
  • 2 tsp peri-peri sauce (hot or wild flavor)
  • ½ tsp cooking oil
  • 1 tbsp mayonnaise

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Lights Camera Action-BIG thing of 32

When i turned 30 i bought myself a car and when i turned 31 i got my lovely Macbookpro. Last year almost right till the end i kept wondering what was my big thing for 32…and then boom i realised i was living my big thing for 32, i was working as a SET DRESSER FOR A  MOVIE, a BBC films and sun dance film project, based on a Pakistani story and by a pakistani director Sabiha Sumar [ from the khamosh pani]RAFINA ladies and gentlemen!!.

Finally i said it, yes its 6 months too late but i just never got around to writing it. This is was an overwhelming project for me that i didnt realize how big it was till it finally ended on 3rd december after an intense month and a half long shoot [no day no night] and almost a month and a half of pre production!! Rafina is a project that got me hooked again into a world of creating illusions with spaces and props. Inshallah this is set for a release in september 2011..and hopefully by then i will have figured out my thing for 33, as K very timely said today..”maybe you should get married for the big thing” hahah who knows maybe maybe not…

Thanks to cloudkhizzy who was friends with the art director for the film [ no offense but he didnt move an inch, being the art director and all:P] ometime around early july amidst crazy rains, i met him for lunch and we discussed movie prospect and how i coudnt take this as a freelance project and it had to be full-time. Damn!! this was crazy crossroad for me, i would have to quit my agency, because no matter how nice my memon boss is, he would not let me off for 3 months ..right!!! WRONG!!! after much deliberation i decided i would just quit, and tell my boss that i wanted to do this project and he can go hire some other person for his agency [ yeh i know rude but i was just badly wanting this and also scared about wanting this, so it was a combination of crazy emotions]. Anyway, upon finally talking to boss, he was like yeh go ahead take 3 months off, as long as you come back after that. I was shocked, did i hear him right??? did he just say take 3 months off [not paid obviously]?? Well that was definitely what i heard, because the next thing i did was email Mr art director and tell him i was in, full on.

Thank-God for this, because i spent the most crazy three months of my life, physically emotionally..every way. Allah Mian works in strange ways, a day before my shoot was to start i heard a personal news that completely killed me and i thought there was no way in hell i could ever do this crazy shoot or work or even move, but like i said Allah mian works in strange ways, i got so occupied with my work [ initially there was suddens moments of my breaking down internally and then i would just pick myself up and got going again] that even breakdown moments were rare or atleast got rarer over time. This dual intensity of losing something and working gave me a kind of strength that i could have never gotten otherwise.

I made some super amazing friends during this shoot, although most of the people were nothing like how i am , very very different but we connected amazingly. My work during the shoot was much more appreciated by the crew that was here from Holland and Germany. they were amazed that a girl could function like this in a country like pakistan and was not necessarily  messed up in the head. She laughed, she drove her car at every odd hour and she worked her ass off. 

Allah mian really took care of me during this whole thing, gave me strength and even love[real stuff], but to embrace that i would have to seriously get murdered by my mom, but it was nice to be appreciated like that;)

So yeh definitely THE BIG THING of 32 and it kicked 31’s ass!!! I am a better, stronger person and 2011 seems to be only going forward with this good feeling mashallah.

Thankyou God.

here are some images from the movie..:)

the setdresser in full gear

the crazies 101

Anina Diener- the production Goddess

mullah's scream -fahashi band karo

DOP and the coolest gaffer

tummy love in jars

I am the comfort food girl.i am the girl who likes to cook[but doesnt] I am the girl who  relinquishes to extreme hunger at 12pm. I am the girl who at the lack of anything worth it to eat [obviously if mum has made gobi for dinner, don’t get me wrong I like gobi , just not when I have come home at 9pm and all I could think on my way while driving was , yup FOODDDD!!!!] will make her quick pasta dish with veggies and sausage or whatever there is and plonk in front of the tv and HOG!!! I am the girl who makes her own lunch and god forbid if I don’t, I am usually [by 11am] trying to find out where I can order lunch from! Infact I have a song for myself…

I’ve got you under my skin [uhuh the fat]

You make my world spin baby

The thought of you makes me wanna go grab ya

Every time it doesn’t have to be grand

Everytime it doesn’t have to be hot…

Just stay by my side whenever I need you

Ok I think that was a tad bit too much!!! Anyway, what brought this on was my jar of goodies that I keep on my bedside right along with my other love…my books! These jars vary from having homemade namak para, to some oatmeal cookies, to peanuts, to a concoction of nuts. Haha ok obviously I am very hungry at the mo, so this needs to get posted and if you are crazy hungry like me then you might want to check this out and for now just maybe feast on design…i am hoping the later would be yummy too!!! oh and if you are currently FB-ing then this here might strike your food fancy too!!*wink wink*
and before we say cut..here is my treat


how to treat your mom and other advices

ok so yes its been long overdue! a long post about my BIG THING of turning 32 and all the emotional drama that followed, getting into 2011 etc etc. I cant possibly write it all here right now but the BIG thing post is definitely coming soon.

So the reason im writing right now is that there was lots going on in my head about moms in general. My own mom, i mean she still obviously treats me like i am the most stupid girl alive and none of my experiences in life really matter [but that i think is just a mom thing] my mom and i are not the huggy, cuddly touchy feely kind, especially my mom, she is not the overly emotional type,infact she starts crying if in conversation someone starts doing her “hamdardi”.  She is emotional like that, anyway long story short, mom and i have arguments , we dont always talk in sweet words to each other and yes i am rude to her sometimes which i am not proud of at all, but that is the way ami and i are.

So SOME of my mom friends of mine, who have now experienced bearing a new life and  having that bond with their children obviously have seen the new meaning to mother and child relationship!!which is great! But hey when you start lecturing me in how i should behave with my mom and how i am being  rude to her [i understand it is from the goodness of your heart ] but when you say ”  but u need to chill out a but with ur mom” i think back to your behavior with yours before shadi and baby. I understand the concern but hey dont turn all “i know what it feels like for a mom & i have to tell you so” on me.

I love my mom and i have a different relationship with her, we have our moments like every other mother and daughter. Things come and go, good times and bad times..so hey take it easy on me girl. I may not have your kind of experiences but i am not exactly a moron either.


~those who do not show their romantic dreamy side, are usually the most soulful~

its me or probably just the fact that i am watching “dil tou pagal hai ” at the moment or maybe the fact that more and more i am seeing people like that

crystal ball

i once had a “Crystal ball” situation, where someone told me that my life would get really exciting and big post 30, i was very young then and the thought that damn i have to wait till 30 for excitement was a major blow to my romantic, dreamy soul. given that, i just trashed the whole notion and said whatever to so called what ifs and future etc, i just lead my life everyday without thinking, just living my life. i fell in love, i lost direction, got it back, everything happened and life carried on.

now post 30 , lfe is still exciting and future still unpredictable, but its nice. I like the unpredictability, i like having freinds around who are completely settled in life with kids, yes i have my moments [ oh well ok days!!] of sadness or loneliness or where am i going but having said all that in retrospect everthing makes sense to me and the crystal ball situation has come true, not because its some “oh my god i heard this ages ago its meant to be” no . i am just a stronger person now, i am better at being me, mashallah allah mian has given me friends who make up my life [few but precious] and i am more more me. my career is in the process of turning, and  i am liking this turn, its making me grounded and even though its after a long time, but the change is happening and i am loving it.

again i am leaving my post conclusion-less, but oh well, even my life is conclusion-less right now and its fine 😉

jal-us nahi hona please

i give off  some weird vibes obviously or im just too good:P, for the FOURTH FREAKING TIME, i heard a male friend tell me how his [fiance’. wife. girlfriend.whoever] had a problem with me and that he shouldnt talk to me.

now there are 2 ways i can assess this, the totally wrong way or i ca feel wonderful about myself and just go ahead and say..”jalouss ho kay mar jao gi”

and to the men who give in to such things…sod off!!!!


you sap me of my energy when you burn

but you also give me an adrenaline rush

you make me stop when you stop

but you also give me an unsaid hope

an unsaid desire to be free

to explore myself through you

i cant leave you

people think thats me not accepting change

but thats me wanting to be with you becuase you make me, me

if i do go away, some part of me belongs to you

dont burn, i love you

bring your life back

I Heart K


This is something i came across abhi, hilariously put rendition of Pakistani mindset, although i personally cant stand it when people use the word “burger” to categorize  bridge kay us par and is par, but fun read.

i had an episode with this ristha auntie who came from defence with her filmi sa beta and very aptly said..”bhai hum defence main tou rehtay hain magar hum un burger type logon jaisay nahi hain” as she pulled up her short short si capri pants even more

yuck .puke!!!